Ever feel like you had something for a really long time...you ignored it, picked at it, hated it.... but when it went away it left you feeling utterly and completely desolate...in a word incomplete.
I've been feeling that for some time now.Not about something in particular but lots of things that i didn't even realize affected me that much.I won't list them out but the reality of the situation is that i miss them...it....it's not loneliness ,it's emptiness. Withdrawal from the existing ordinary and molding into the nowness of the routine.
It's not a temporary thing either because the void will always be there, things will fill up around it but never in it.Sometimes i think that i have actually come to almost embrace this feeling, welcoming it as my own. But what i do realize too is that there are so many out there who feel the same , think the same , and yet are living within the same routine, the same nowness.
